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i'll have something new to show you by new year's. maybe even the day before. it won't be much, but it's something.
and simca's upset still. i'd apologize to her, but she doesn't seem like the type to take apologies, and i don't feel that sorry for it. it was bad, but she should know that we all have to do these things for at.
i normally would feel sorry, but she makes it hard. i don't want to be her enemy, but ignoring her doesn't seem like a good idea. not when she's close to you like ikki is to me.
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simca left that comment the other day and i never replied to it. i keep thinking about it. i'd ask ikki, but he wouldn't know what to say and would probably make me lick his shoe and then give him mine again while calling them ugly. they're not the best, but they'll do. why am i defending my shoes? the bastard can't even read this.
but the point is that simca left the comment. if i go to the ball, spitfire might want me to sit with him, and it might not work so well if simca's there as his date. she says the parts won't last and they won't keep being there for me to take. that doesn't even make any sense. at parts wear down really fast so she'd have to keep making them no matter what. they might not be right for the flames, but i have the regalia. i'm just not using them. that might be a problem when i start using them. i'll need a tuner, but this isn't the time to worry about that.
heh, i feel like i'm rationalizing this. i need the parts. i had to do what i had to do, and what i did was awful, but it's for the road. if i hadn't, the road wouldn't go anywhere. i wonder if that's what she wants. like i'm not good enough for it and i'll never be. this is my way of proving myself. i'll talk to spitfire about it and see.