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BEST. IDEA. EVER.

We all need to go to the beach RIGHT NOW.

Current Mood: excited!!!

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Man, I've been here for over a year. I just realized, I got here last July. How wacked out is that? A year and a month. It feels like I've been here forever though.

I hope Yuka-tan and Minato show up soon. I miss 'em. And I know I wouldn't complain if Chidori came either, but I don't wanna get my hopes up.

Anyway, for now, I'll be out in the snow. I mean, there's freakin' snow! In the middle of summer! What's cooler than that?! Optimus Prime really likes eating it for some reason. Yeah, my dog's awesome.

Current Mood: nostalgic

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ARE YOU SERIOUS

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I guess the kid stuff wasn't all that bad. I think I did okay, it's just... kinda weird. I dunno, I'm totally not ready to deal with kids like, at all. Maybe in 10 years or something, man, just not now.

I guess they're saying that the stuff I got tossed into jail over before might get turned over. Like, wiped off my record, 'cause of Yagami Raito, since he was involved with the cases and stuff. That's what they told me. I dunno. I'm just trying to keep myself outta trouble for now. I don't really care if it stays on my record or not.

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Man, I am so ready for school to be over.

And I got a roommate. She seems pretty cool but she's like, locked herself in her room, I think. The door's closed and I haven't seen her all day. I wonder what's up.

Current Mood: tired

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Man, I'm kinda glad I don't have a roommate. I still gotta help out, but... kids. I dunno. I like 'em, I guess, I haven't really been around 'em too much to know, but I don't think they're annoying or anything. It'd be weird to have to look after one with another girl. I guess I wouldn't mind at all if it were Chidori, or Rena-san or something. But it'd be weird.

It's just... Nah, it's not like I'm afraid of being like my dad. That ain't it. I know I'm not gonna do to my kids what he did to me. Heh, if I ever have kids. I mean, it's just weird. I dunno if I'd be good with babies. I never had parents when I was growing up, really, so I dunno how to babysit or anything like that. I don't know how to look after anybody. I'm totally clueless.

Not tryin' to be depressing. Just sayin'.

And y'know, people wonder why I never drink. I got a 50% chance of bein' alcoholic, and I'm not gonna chance it.

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Speed dating? Seriously? Kinda sounds like fun, I guess...

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This "no hat" thing at school is so lame. My hat is part of my soul, man. I look stupid without it. Oh well, it's only for a month or so, then I'm outta there for good.

Well, stuff that isn't lame? I got a dog, and he's really cool. Pretty smart, like Koromaru. Man, I miss Koromaru. Well, anyway, he's Optimus Prime, and he's been good at keeping me company so far. Empty apartments are quiet apartments. He sure likes to scratch the carpet, though I guess I don't mind. I think I can teach him to stop eventually.

I always wanted a dog when I was a kid, but, well, I couldn't have one at my house. I really like 'em, can't believe I completely forgot about those coupon things.

You know, this place has the worst pizza ever, but for some reason I can't stop eating it. Can't be bothered to cook these days, either. I know chicks dig that, but I can only pretty much just boil water. Yep, that's about the extent of my skills, there.

Current Mood: hungry

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Hey hey, it's a party! Nice guys like me never get dates, but that's alright. It's not mandatory, so I'm in the clear. I'll show up to at least have some of the chow and complain about the music. We should all go, Senpai! Both of ya. You too, Ken! You should bring your friends too.

Rena-san, were you planning on coming?

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Hey, uh...

Sorry for acting like I did that one time. I know, it was a while ago, and you probably forgot about it already but... yeah. I was just really messed up. That's not really an excuse for me being a bastard, but yeah. I'm still confused about a lot of stuff -- like, I can't remember wrecking the city at all, I used Trismegistus and everything and I can't even remember calling him at all... I still dunno what happened but I'm tryin' not to let it get to me. It's just really hard without Yuka-tan or Minato here to get my mind off of it all.

I'm tryin' to do better in school too. I haven't been ditching on my tutor or anything, promise. You'd know about it, anyway... That's not really the point, I mean even if they wouldn't tell you, I'd still go, but you get what I mean.

Anyway... thanks, I guess. For putting up with my crap.

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I never thought I'd be so glad to see my room again, though I guess my roommate left. No big deal. I like having my own space, you know? Kinda like how it was when I was going to Gekkoukan.

But, man... I sure was shocked when I found myself going to the police station. They kept asking me all these questions, but I swear to god, I can't remember anything that happened that night. They said I was rioting all over the city, but why would I do that? And why the hell am I not remembering something that important?

Whatever.

I missed a whole freakin' week of school. I guess I gotta play catch-up with my tutor. Man, this sucks.

Rena-san, thanks for keeping me company.

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This is all fucked up.

I wanna do better in school.

Current Mood: cranky

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I should've known it was a trick. I should've.

Damn it. My life here is so pointless. I'm just skating by, waiting for Minato or Yuka-tan or even Chidori to show up. I don't care about passing classes anymore. Hell, I don't really care about making anything of myself anymore. There's nobody here to save. Here, without them, I'm just stupid old Junpei.

This is stupid.

Damn it! I totally fell for it and now...

Current Mood: crushed

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Mitsuru-san's here now, too.

Look, I don't wanna complain. I'm really glad she's here. Even though she's kinda scary when it comes to grades, I'm just glad to see that she's okay. And it's nice to have her around. I mean, she's my friend. Well, kinda. We're not really that close, but you know what I mean. It's gotta be nice for Akihiko-san, too. I bet he missed her a lot.

But... it's kinda not fair. Why can't Minato or Yuka-tan...

Man, back there, I really meant something. When I was so tired that I wanted to pass out in class, it wasn't 'cause I stayed up playing video games. It was 'cause I was doing something good with myself. 'Cause I was a hero. At first, that didn't really mean anything to me, I mean it did, but mostly it was just really cool, right? Then, after Chidori...

After I let her...

I don't even know what I'm learning in school anymore, man. I sleep through class. I don't do homework, I mess around on WoW all day. I go to work, which is easy enough, then come home and do whatever I can just to waste time. My room's a mess. I'm probably failing most of my classes. It's even worse than it was at home. At least at home I tried a little bit. I'd cram before tests and stuff, but I'd never tell anybody. I still managed to pass by the skin of my teeth. Here, I just don't care anymore.

Yep, Junpei, you don't ever change, do ya?

Current Mood: indescribable

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Believe me Senpai, I'm worried too. I kinda miss being the hero but I never wanna see the Dark Hour or Tartarus ever again. It's the truth. I'm probably more scared than you are. Well, I'm usually more scared than you are. All this growth I supposedly went through back at home -- I dunno, it's gone now that I've been here for so long. Maybe I've just gotten soft.

I'm worried about everyone. I wonder if they're okay. How long has it been since I've seen them anyway? Sure feels like forever. I've only really talked to Akihiko-senpai this whole time. I know a lot of other people here, but it just isn't the same. And I keep locking myself in my room. Not literally, but you know. Pretty dumb, but I can't figure out what it is I'm supposed to do.

It looks like Simca-san's got her own stuff going on. I...don't think I even care anymore. I'm all good. I think. Maybe if I run into her I'll say hi, but otherwise, I won't bug her. I don't know what it is, I just...she can do what she wants. It must have been a phase. I'm sure I'll be back to normal at some point.

I miss you, Chidori. I say it all the time but I never feel any better. Really, it's been worse since I got here, because I was fighting for you back there. But there's nothing here for me to fight anymore. There's nothing for me to do. I kinda like it that way -- I said I didn't want the Dark Hour here anymore -- but it's nothing without everybody else here to celebrate it with me. And without you.

You know what, there's nobody like you here at all. I mean, of course there isn't, but...you know what I mean, right? Actually, do you wanna know something funny? I saw somebody who kinda reminded me of you. She was sitting in the park and drawing a picture. She wasn't wearing the same stuff you do, and her hair wasn't red, it was blond. But I dunno, I thought of you anyway.

I don't even have your sketchbook anymore. It's not like they decided to transport it here with me. I wish I had it, I think I'd feel a lot better if I did.

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Man, we've only had like three days of school and it's already a major bore. Talk about epic fail.

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Haven't seen her around. I guess I got stood up.

I should have been expecting it. Like someone like her would go out with a guy like me. She likes Minato and Ryoji, not me.

Whatever.

At least I saw Yuka-tan at that Thanksgiving thing. That was really nice. I miss when all of us would hang out. I mean, just me and her and Minato. And Fuuka and Akihiko-senpai and Mitsuru-senpai. -- God, Mitsuru. Wonder if she's doing okay. I miss her a lot, I'm sure Senpai does too.

But man, I miss when it was just us, when we were kinda like our own little club. Hell, we were our own club. S.E.E.S., man! It was cool. But now they have other friends and we're not all as attached as we used to be. So they've kinda left, but I'm still here. I dunno, I don't really make friends. Acquaintances, sure. People I just randomly talk to when it's convenient and we can keep up a conversation, yeah. But not real friends.

Kinda sucks. Before I met those guys, I was a real loner. Now it's like, I'm back at square one, you know?

Man, when did I turn into such a tool? I haven't changed at all, huh, Chidori?

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Guess who got a promotion at work? You get three guesses, and the first two don't count!

Current Mood: accomplished

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HA. I GOT HER TO SAY YES.

I still have... no idea where I'm taking her, but from the kind of dough I've been making this week, it's got to be really good! At least, I hope it's good enough for her. I mean, she's...

... I dunno, I don't think she likes me that much. She always talks about Ryoji and Minato a lot, but she talks to me too, and she always... it just reminds me of Chidori a little. Some of the stuff she says. The way she's like, "I don't get you to myself?" and stuff. But that's not why I like her. It's just, I have no idea how she feels about anything at all. She'll cling and then kinda ignore me. Probably because it's... well, Ryoji and Minato. Can't count the number of girls I've tried to get only to have them giggle and ask "who's your friend?"

Now I feel like a tool talking about this crap. I didn't even mean to bring all of that up.

I miss Chidori.

I miss Yuka-tan, too. We don't talk that much anymore.

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Thanks to the people who actually went to Aerocrombie the other day! Especially you, Kairi, I think you probably helped the most since you brought some of your friends. I made more money than anyone else that day, it was awesome!

And, well, more could be said about that than about school. Let's not go there!

Current Mood: accomplished

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Punishment game!

Smart people get to do my homework, not-so-smart people have to go to Aerocrombie and Eagle tomorrow and buy at least $30 worth of stuff while I'm on shift.

If you're not up for either of those, uh, I'll think of something else.

Current Mood: VICTORY

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Simca asked me after she got me out of the watergun game what Minato would say if she asked him on a date.

Man. I don't think she even gets what it means to ask me something like that, but come on... talk about shot down.

I'd tell Ryoji, but I don't think he'd understand, he gets girls all the time.

I hope Chidori isn't mad. She told me to move on, even though I feel like an asshole, sitting here and talking about liking another girl. She doesn't even compare to Chidori, but I still kinda like her.

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I totally tried to go all FPS during that match, but THEN I realized that it's been a while since I've played anything. So I got knocked out pretty early.

Yeah, I'LL DO BETTER NEXT TIME. (There should be a next time, if you ask me.)