indesolution

If anyone else is asking, you've heard right, my brother's gone. He tried to do a lot for you guys, and I'm sure he's going to go back to our world and do the same.

And no, I don't want to talk about it. But I figure while I'm here, I guess I should drop a reminder that the guy named Sylar? He might try to go by Gabriel, but he's bad news. You don't want to deal with him. I figure he's been laying low for a while, but who knows what that guy has planned.

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Don't worry, Nathan. I'll be able to keep it together until I see you again. That's what you'd want, right? It won't be that easy, but you wouldn't want to know I couldn't do this without you. I can, and I'll do it for you. I'll make this place a better one. It won't be like you did it, or could have done it, but it'll be my best.

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It's happening again. The random deaths, the weird way it's happening ... People are getting arrested even if they can't remember what happened to them. Some of them looked really shaken up when I stopped by the station, and I don't know what to do. I'm a little from being ready to serve in a hospital, but what's the use when I can't stop the wounds before they happen? None of those people made it out alive. They're dead ... their lives are screwed up, and if we weren't here, they would have a different chance.

I have control of what I can do now. It's not been a problem since Rachel helped me out. But just because I can control what I do doesn't mean I can really help out around here. That's just one more defused bomb in a place full of many of them. We're not anywhere near the number of the "normal" people, but we're still making a name for ourselves. And it's not a good one.

I don't even know why I'm saying this here. A bunch of people can read this, can't they? I'd rather not have the confirmation. I don't wanna know who's out there, knowing what I'm thinking. It's enough having Parkman around sometimes.

This isn't going to get any easier. If anything, Dalton and his "Captain" will just use this to show how Nathan doesn't care about people. They're no better than the other psychos here. Only some people might think they have the right idea.

... Don't worry too much, Peter. Something will be worked out. I'm not about to let this place tear itself down from the inside just because we can't keep ourselves in line. I don't know how, but I remember Adam, and I remember everything he did for me and my brother. If he was here, I bet he'd do anything he could, too.

[ Filter: Rachel ]

Hey.

When you're not busy, we should have dinner sometime. I've got a feeling it might be a while, so no rush.

I guess I haven't said something here in a while. I'm still going to school. I'd like to be helping people already, but this is what I have to do. It's really a shame that the university is empty for the most part. I keep hoping more people will show up, but I guess you can't join in the middle of a semester. You'd think they'd make it a little easier for people to get back to work, but it's harder for what's a specialty of this world. I'm learning some new stuff, though, and picking it up fast enough.

I have to admit I'm not too happy to hear that people aren't fond of Nathan's program, but he's doing what he can. He's really good at stuff like this, and I promise we're doing everything we can to keep people safe. It's already helped us in a lot of ways, but he can't change everything immediately. I'd explain it a little better, but I've never been too great at political descriptions.

Anyway, I hope you all find a reason to change your minds.

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Sylar doesn't have any powers. They checked him a couple times over and there's nothing.

I still don't know what to think about that. I'd say it's a good thing, but it might turn out that he's figuring out some way around it.

I'll be keeping my eyes on it.

NATHAN.

If you don't reply, I'm coming there. We want to change things here, don't we? Aren't we heroes?

I haven't said anything since New Year's passed, did I? Happy New Year's to everyone. I hope it was pleasant for you. I can't say I did much, but that's how these things go. The ball was pretty nice, too, huh? You were a good date, Elle.

I thought I'd just update. Nathan's better at using these than I am. I figure you should look at something he said if you want something that sounds good.

Well, I guess that's all.

[ Filter: Nathan ]

You're going to this ball, right? I haven't done anything like this since Mom said it'd be a good idea if I stopped coming to the Yuletide Ball a few years back. It was a lot easier finding dates back home, too. Mom was always good at helping us with those if we couldn't do it on our own. Not that you ever had a problem.

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[ Filter: Nathan and Claire ]

I remember everything now.

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I've been here for a little over a week. Has it really only been that long? Yeah, I guess so. I've got family here and I've got a life, but I still can't remember who I was. Caitlin was right, though. I'm a good person. She said I couldn't hurt people, and she was right. I might do it on accident. But ... that's something I'll have to deal with.

I can see where I fit into this, though. Between Nathan and Claire. It just makes sense. Nathan's pretty formidable. A real politician. I'm not surprised I ended up as a nurse. That's helping people, isn't it? I helped his campaign, too. I bet he was a really good politician. I'd have voted for him. I don't know how I could ever measure up against someone like him, and I don't think I ever did. I don't mind too much, though. I supported him, right? That's enough.

Claire ... I don't know about Claire. But I can tell we were friends. It just makes sense. She's a little young, but it makes sense. I saved her and she could save me. She did save me, didn't she? Yeah, I'll have to work that out.

I feel kind of bad for abandoning them, but I didn't know. Didn't want to know is a better way to put it, but if you had power like this, wouldn't you be afraid?

[ Filter: Public ]

Well, I suppose this is a bit awkward. I have to warn everyone about myself. Apparently, I have an ability that allows me to mimic other people's abilities, and I don't think I can control it so well. I've been keeping out of people's ways for a while, ordering out and having my roommate help me out, but I figure I don't want to live inside forever. Anyone got a solution for this? Might not be much, but it's an idea.

I figure I should mention I don't have my memory back yet. It doesn't look like I ever will.