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I feel impatient. With each day that passes, I find myself in the same ruts as before. What is it to ask to be patient when the world is caught at a stand-still, waiting to see what comes next? I can't be patient for that. With every punch of my fist against a punching bag, I feel another second slowly crawl by. There are demons lurking in the shadow, and I am apart from them, ready to take on each of them with all the strength in my body. But the demons don't always wear the same faces; they are different here, less willing to show their power and instead hide behind others. Is it going to continue like this? Will it continue like this? Maybe the time is coming when I might need to become a more deciding factor.

I've been making friends here. They're fighters, too, doing what they can to make it by. Some of them hide it. I can see the look in Junpei's eyes whenever I go to train. I can tell he's been there before, but I'm not about to ask. We're trying to be friends! It's strange being here without Bob sometimes. Even with the friends I'm making, he was one of the first who understood what it was like to be in my place. In a way, we were apart from the rest, but I was the only one with the strength of the demon to destroy the wheel of fate.

I'd like to know how Aya sees all of this. What would it be like if Nagi were here? I've found myself questioning it more and more. Would it matter if that man is resting dormant inside of him? I wouldn't say it would, but there's a chance. A chance is too much.

I thought about having a normal life here. I thought about asking her to that thing this weekend, and celebrating defying some part of fate. But no matter where I go, I feel it crushing me. It has followed me, and if I can destroy it here, then I can destroy it when I go back there. There has to be a chance! Even if it's in the future, there's a chance that I'll keep my word. That's all that matters.

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Hey, has anyone heard about another Brawl happening? I already feel like another one would help us out.