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[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Yuuko-san, thank you for having me as long as you did. I hope I wasn't a burden to you. I'll be sure to come back as often as I can, okay? I enjoy your company a lot!

Kuchiki-san! Maybe you can come over soon and we can make some t-shirts!

[ Filter: Roxas-kun ]

I'm sorry, I acted rashly when I left. It gave me a lot of time to think, and with Kabane-san showing up, I think I'm more comfortable coming home. I didn't mean what I said as a threat, please don't keep thinking of it that way. I was only thinking of myself when I left, and how hurt I was by your words to think about how you felt. I thought if I had my Powers, that I'd be able to help you, even if it was just a little bit.

I hope you haven't missed me too much. Ah, I'll make you dinner tonight, okay, and a bento for tomorrow at school? I'm excited to see you again!

[ Filter: Private ]

I can feel it a little more since Kabane-san arrived, it's not the same as Souichirou-sama, but there's something small blossoming inside of me. I fell back in who I used to be, saying that I needed the Dragon's Eye to help Roxas-kun, but I don't. In some way, I think that Roxas-kun will just be happy to have me there to support him. I might not be the same as his friend, Namine-san, but I want to do all I can. I don't need the Dragon's Eye. I'd like to see more about this world, and where it's going; I'd like to see when my final "piece" is arriving, and when Roxas-kun will find peace, himself. I have a feeling, though, that if I looked into that, that I'd see something different. Maybe it's more like a "Piece" broken off from someone else's Fate. I don't think Roxas-kun is complete.

I'll keep waiting for Souichirou-sama, no matter how long it takes. I'll become a strong woman, and look over Kabane-san until Shoujou-san arrives! I'll keep having small talks with Yuuko-san and Kuchiki-san; and I'll help Andrew-kun and Jonathan-kun as much as I can. Maybe in this place, my life will be better until I can use the Dragon's Eye. Maybe this is part of my "Fate."

I'll see you soon, Souichirou-sama. I'm here so you won't be alone when you arrive. I promise that when you come, that I'll be ready, and I'll take care of you. I'll make sure that you're happy here, in this world without a War, without Souhaku, and without anyone trying to break the bonds that we've created. When I think of you, my breath still speeds up, and my heart still swells up in my chest. I'll make good friends with Kabane-san, and we'll all go out to lunch when you arrive, Souichirou-sama, I promise.

Comments

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

well um. I won't tell anyone of course.

was he a villain? but um yeah, I'll add him to my list of people I'm watching out for. there's so many. it's scary to think anyone could come in at any time.



yeah um. the fine line or whatever. we're familiar with that. but sflkj not the point, anyway that's good! um, that's a good reason. I think so at least. I think um, fighting for yourself is kind of pointless I think? or just. too selfish. I don't know, but I think that's a good reason to use your power.

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

I hope he doesn't show up. I don't know if I like or dislike there not being a war, but I don't want there to be pointless deaths.

Fighting for yourself? Though... I think it's essential to fight for yourself if you're going to fight for someone else. When I just fought for Souichirou-sama, I wasn't as strong as I was, I realized that I had to fight for myself too, and when I did, I believed in myself a little more. It might be selfish, but I think we all have to be a little selfish sometimes, too.

Maybe you should sign up for kung-fu, Jonathan-kun!

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

believe me, I understand that.

I guess um. it's really hard to talk about but um it's just easier for me to believe in other people. not that I even fight that much to begin with but when I do, it's really. not for me. I don't know, it's complicated, um I can't explain myself very well. sorry.

slkfjsk you're funny, Aya. that's more like Andrew's thing. and I still can't really move well enough to do stuff like that.

but you take it right?

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

I think I understand. When I get my Powers back, I would like if you'd let me understand.

Mm! I think it'd help a lot, Jonathan-kun.

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

um. okay. if you really want to. all the screwed up stuff might not be fun but um, if you'd like.

it probably would help but I can't. really. um, knife wound and all, doesn't really lend well to that sort of stuff! is there a blonde girl in your class?

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

It usually isn't, but... it might be nice knowing someone understands.

Oh! Yes! But when you heal up, it'll make you stronger. Ah, there is, are you talking about Summers-san?

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

that's true. um, I could just tell you the stuff, you know. you don't have to get in my head or whatever.

okay, I'll um keep it in mind but I'm not promising anything.



yeah. I am. Buffy. this is a weird question, but is she okay? not um with the fighting, just. does she seem like she's doing well?

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Ah, I just thought about it because you were said you were bad about explaining things! Whatever way you're most comfortable with, but it would be nice to get to know you better. I want to make a lot of friends.

Maybe you could even come watch! Then you can see how Summers-san is doing! She seemed okay from what I saw, but I've only seen her a few times, so I don't know what kind of person she is...

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

oh okay! I um. I did a lot of years of therapy so I'm kind of used to talking about this stuff, sometimes I just think that it doesn't, you know, make sense anywhere outside of my head. but yeah skfjsk I like talking to you! I'd rather tell you, just, um I apologize in advance.

I don't think I should come watch, she probably would think that's really weird, but. um, she's a great person. she saved my life and um, yeah, just. as long as she doesn't seem sad. that's good.

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Ah! She did? She kind of seems like that type, doesn't she? I'll keep a look out for her, and I'll tell you more after the next class.

[ Filter : Aya ]

[magicbone]

she did. once when it really counted and um, a few more times when she probably shouldn't have. I'll tell you about it sometime.

thank you. really really, that's awesome. I'm um, not good at talking to her. so. but anyway! that was so not my point with all of this. I'm glad you're feeling better, Aya.

[ Filter: Jonathan-kun ]

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Ah, it's really not a problem at all!

Thank you for worrying over me. I hope you're feeling better too.