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[magicbone]

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I hate my birthday. holy cats, I hate it so much. Andrew keeps talking about doing something and um I just don't have it in me to tell him that I really don't want to. like really at all. I don't even want anyone to know. I just. don't like my birthday. if I was really lucky everyone would just forget and um, by everyone I mean Andrew, because I doubt Warren remembers? but seriously why can't we just pretend it doesn't exist. that would be for the best. um. really.


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I'm still waiting for something bad to happen. um. maybe I'm sabotaging myself, but. yeah.

um I feel like there should be a state of the Babylon address or something, I don't even know. Rule 42 is doing really well, um, Warren is rebuilding gaming consoles so we should have those soon. I hope. but yeah it's fun and we could still use more interviewees if anyone is interested. you don't even have to be a main character from your series, we're like, compiling as many of them as we can. like a Babylon yearbook! or, you know. something like that.

also if we don't want to use our free pet coupon (because um, I have enough with Menchi eating my head and Tesla being you know THE DEATHPUPPY, why are my friends insane?) can we just give them back or something? because someone else might want it. or I could just give it away to someone on here, um if for some reason someone wanted another pet.

I think that's it. I lead a really fun and exciting life?

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[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

I may need to remind you how to act grateful, then.

[magicbone]

um. no thank you.

[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

I never said you had a choice.

[magicbone]

okay well whatever it is you're planning on doing, um, could you just not? just this once?

[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

Do you think you're included in this plan?

[magicbone]

um. I'd rather not be. but don't go after my friends either okay. just um. let it go. deep breaths, counting to ten, envisioning oceans, um we did all of that in therapy.

[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

How did he betray you?

[magicbone]

um.

I'm not telling you.

[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

I see.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

It would be better if you left Jonathan-kun alone.

[magicbone]

um. it's really okay Aya, I don't want him to hate you too.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

He can hate me all he wants, he shouldn't say things like that.

[magicbone]

I know he shouldn't, but um. I don't want anyone to get hurt.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Unless we do something, someone might.

[magicbone]

true.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

I don't like someone thinking they have a right to say things like this to you.

[magicbone]

this isn't as bad as some stuff.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

It doesn't matter.

You should stand up for yourself sometimes, Jonathan-kun.

[magicbone]

okay. I know. but that makes things worse. um, someone always ends up getting hurt, usually me but if it's Andrew or Warren or you or um, anyone else really, I just never want to do something to get other people hurt. if everyone ignored him I think he would just go away.

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[ryuume.livejournal.com]

I don't know if he'd go away... he might just find another person to terrorize.

You can't blame yourself if someone else decides to hurt someone else. That's not your fault. In the end, you can't guess what he'd do. He might just decide to hurt someone because you're friends with them. You don't know what he's thinking... You're not protecting people like that.

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[magicbone]

okay. you're right.

um except it is my fault. look okay, I've dealt with bullies pretty much forever and um. if you make yourself more visible it just ends up hurting you more. Warren does it too but whatever, that's what he and I do so it's okay. um, Mukuro is scarier than that. I brought up Andrew and um, the betrayal or whatever even if he and I have already talked about that, and if he decides to hurt Andrew then that's my fault. I'd like to stop him, I mean, before he hurts anyone, but um. it's difficult.

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[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Then I'll protect you and Andrew-kun.

Just make yourself invisible. Then, if something happens, it's my fault.

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[magicbone]

um. for the record I'm more worried about Andrew. but okay. um, thank you. please don't get hurt. and don't think it's your fault. please.

[pathsofhell.livejournal.com]

I am.

[ryuume.livejournal.com]

Fine.