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Even if it is just waffles, I cannot help but feel wary about them sharing waffles together. I would like to say that it has everything to do with trust, but it has to do with the feeling of jealousy that courses through my body. Every time I have imagined it prior to signing into this journal, I feel no different than I did when she first announced her engagement to Nagi; I feel somewhat more secure in the fact that she has a close relationship with Nagi and that she claims that Kabane is a person who is much like her, but I still feel uneasy. I will have to stymie the rage within, because this is not a situation that calls for a demon. I should be comfortable with this, but I find myself constantly thwarted from my own desires in remaining enamoured by Aya's existence.
There are more important concerns here. I have a promise to uphold, and remaining jealous will not guide me toward keeping that promise. I cannot keep you safe if I am jealous, Aya, because I will be blinded by what it is that I wish to see even if that is far from the reality. I cannot protect you if I am not there as a friend. I have made that promise, and it is the one thing I can maintain in this place full of enigmas. Even here, we remain uncertain, and I still do not have faith that they are changing things for the better. You are helping toward what will make things better, though, and I think you can do your part, Aya.
And I will always remain at your side. Our connection is that of a promised protection and nothing more. I will not be concerned about the implications of White Day. Even if I would like to purchase you a gift in return for your rose, I think it might be best if I refrained. Your happiness is of a greater concern, and your happiness will be linked to Nagi no matter how much I deny it.
I'll be able to remain this way, Aya. I understand your connection now.
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I've finally been called back for a job! It's not anything like yours, Aya-chan, but I look forward to working there. I'll be starting at Aerocrombie and Eagle tomorrow afternoon. It's a little different from anything I've done before, but I decide it's better to have a job than no job.
Even if it is just waffles, I cannot help but feel wary about them sharing waffles together. I would like to say that it has everything to do with trust, but it has to do with the feeling of jealousy that courses through my body. Every time I have imagined it prior to signing into this journal, I feel no different than I did when she first announced her engagement to Nagi; I feel somewhat more secure in the fact that she has a close relationship with Nagi and that she claims that Kabane is a person who is much like her, but I still feel uneasy. I will have to stymie the rage within, because this is not a situation that calls for a demon. I should be comfortable with this, but I find myself constantly thwarted from my own desires in remaining enamoured by Aya's existence.
There are more important concerns here. I have a promise to uphold, and remaining jealous will not guide me toward keeping that promise. I cannot keep you safe if I am jealous, Aya, because I will be blinded by what it is that I wish to see even if that is far from the reality. I cannot protect you if I am not there as a friend. I have made that promise, and it is the one thing I can maintain in this place full of enigmas. Even here, we remain uncertain, and I still do not have faith that they are changing things for the better. You are helping toward what will make things better, though, and I think you can do your part, Aya.
And I will always remain at your side. Our connection is that of a promised protection and nothing more. I will not be concerned about the implications of White Day. Even if I would like to purchase you a gift in return for your rose, I think it might be best if I refrained. Your happiness is of a greater concern, and your happiness will be linked to Nagi no matter how much I deny it.
I'll be able to remain this way, Aya. I understand your connection now.
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I've finally been called back for a job! It's not anything like yours, Aya-chan, but I look forward to working there. I'll be starting at Aerocrombie and Eagle tomorrow afternoon. It's a little different from anything I've done before, but I decide it's better to have a job than no job.
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Date: 2008-02-27 06:34 am (UTC)This is exciting, isn't it? We both have a job! I wonder what Neechan would say!
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Date: 2008-02-27 06:40 am (UTC)But I think... that it's nice to have this time so we can grow on our own, don't you think so, Senpai? I've always had someone to guide me. My Otousan, Okaasan, Niichan and Neechan... but right now, this is my chance to see what I can do for myself! Really and truly! We have each other to depend on, Senpai!
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