indesolution

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It finally occurred to me today that you probably read these. It wasn't difficult for me to hack into the system, but I felt as if it was wrong. But I'm not like you, Hal, and if it were up to you, you would do anything possible so that you could read these. I was tempted to see what you had to say in private, but you don't update very often and I doubt you would take the opportunity to write something that another person could find. Even if you did, it wouldn't be anything surprising. I thought about stopping from writing these, just in case you were reading, but I've thought better of it.

It doesn't really matter what you can or can't read. You already know anyway, don't you? I won't write any more of these to you. I don't think that would help very much, but I thought I would address it while it came to mind. I should have thought of it sooner, but you had disappeared for a time. But it's what you wanted—you're right. But I can't help but worry about you. Where you are right now and what you're doing.

I've other things to worry about, so I had better get to them. You probably think I'm insane for insisting upon going to school here. I don't care, though. I knew from the moment we got out together that I wouldn't want to do any of this, but now that I'm here, the others aren't. There's no Cham or Vashti or Isaac to do what you, me, and Fantasia wouldn't do. It only makes sense now.

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Do you think the government here has any problem with piercings? I'm looking for a bit of nostalgia, and I've never had the real experience before.

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All of these people are in pain, but the only time I've experienced anything like this was with Mercutio. When we were kids ... even recently ... we would play war games, but then Laz ended up disappearing and it wasn't the same anymore. Halloween lost his memory, and we found out what happened to Mercutio. I can't help but wonder what Vashti would say about this. She would likely say it has something to do with them being men, and needing to prove themselves. The girl who fought was just trying to stand up to it.

It's a little scary that I was able to work that out. I don't think that was the case.

I can't help but think that we would have liked to be able to manipulate the system to do things like that. If we could control one another, the battles would have been different. We were only kids, though, and I still feel like one even now. I want to help so many of them, but I can't help but be curious about how it all worked.

I would talk to Halloween about it, but he's not here. I might start writing to him in this, and maybe when he comes, I can show him the contents. He might not care—he's Hal, after all—but I would like for him to see it.

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I'm afraid I don't completely understand what happened, but I imagine that's a part of being in a new world.

Rube, I'm not sure what to think about what you said. You didn't want someone to die, did you?

[ Filter: Everyone, with the exception of Chris Redfield ]

Does anyone know Chris Redfield? I'd like to buy him a very good gift.

This society is fairly remarkable. I wonder what it would have been like if they were as capable of containing themselves in my world. I wonder if it even would have been possible, but it's something to wonder about.

I suppose that's a fairly vague way of introducing myself. My name is Pandora. I'm new here.