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um.....

lately Ive had some bad dreams. like about Appa and stuff...... and Toph and Zuko and Sokka too.

and Katara......

i was really scared when I woke up. i'm glad I didnt hurt anybody but i could have.... what if they got hurt because I wasnt strong enough? thats what he said, he said I was weak. i'm not weak! its just that I can't use the avatar state anymore..... and i cant bend that well here and I wouldnt know how to keep something like what happened from happening again. and i was asleep for a really long time too...... i have to get stronger but I dont know how.

Im scared a lot....... well Ive kind of always been scared i guess. but i don't want to tell anybody. its bad enough that were stuck in a place with no sun or animals and really stuffy air, and the Fire Nation could be doing bad stuff while we're gone too. I dont want to make them worry about me anymore. were all kinda worried about stuff already. i just dont want anything to happen to them either. so Ive kind of been acting like im not so worried, i dont think theyve noticed.

ill try practicing my bending more. it's all i can do right now. practicing bending here is hard, I don't really like it. but i'll do it. i have to do it.


i hope Katara liked the rose even if she didn't say anything about it. its probably all wilted by now. mine were a long time ago. I wanted to write something on it but i didnt know what to say.... i don't want to bring it up but it's weird.