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[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

[filter: ikki-kun]
it feels so empty without you here sometimes. it's wrong of me to feel that way because it isn't your fault you're not here anymore and i can't blame anyone for what the portal does anyway but i miss you and it's not fair - that's really selfish of me to say so i'm sorry. but it isn't fair that as soon as we really understood each other the best for what was probably the first time that i felt like i knew exactly what i was doing i ended up here and at least you were here at first but now you're not and i don't know what i'm doing with myself most of the time.

all the notes i make are flat. it's so hard to find the right tune for these a-t to carry, the parts are all different all wrong and it's so hard sometimes to remember that the sky isn't a weight crushing me down without you here.

ε-(´・｀) look at me whining to someone who can't even see this~~

i know what you'd say if you were here, you're doing an amazing job kururu, keep it up!

you always know how to make me feel better, ikki-kun. i wish you were here so i could believe my smiles meant something to someone, but i know what you'd say there too.

i just have to keep smiling! right?

i think i can do that, ikki-kun.

( ´△｀) i wouldn't be a very good pledge queen if i couldn't, after all!

so come back! because i want you to see me smiling for you again someday! (人･_･)♡ okay, ikki-kun?

(;￣▽￣)ﾉ————〜〜〜◎ i'll be waiting.

[filter: private]
i'm not sure which is worse of me, that i need to talk to ikki-kun because i can't feel better on my own or that i can only do it because he's not here.

i wonder if anybody else feels like this when the people they care about disappears. most of them just seem to be angry, more than anything else ... angry more than sad. i wish i knew. maybe it would help if anybody knew how to talk about it, but i don't know where to begin, and i couldn't give anyone else the responsibility for my own feelings.

i think simca misses him too, but i'm not sure. i hope i help a little, by talking to her. it's so hard to tell what she thinks sometimes, especially about ikki.

[filter: public]
(*．△．) simon-san, i think your a-t need a tuneup, too. (ﾟДﾟ≡ﾟДﾟ) you're riding them really rough, i can hear the way the gears aren't shifting right every time you make a turn! (ﾟｰﾟ)(｡_｡) come by the store tomorrow so i can fix them please?

i'm going to close open☆sky early today i think, i hope that doesn't upset anyone. （・ｗ・） i haven't been to a beach in too long, i want to look back on it and say i enjoyed myself!

(〃ﾟ∇ﾟ〃) and i need to buy a swimsuit.

Comments

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(人´∀`*) Let's go, Kururu Chan!

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

♪(ﾟ▽^*)ﾉ⌒☆ i can't wait, this is going to be so much fun! (/*^^)/ do you have a swimsuit already simca-san?

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

ヾ(*´∇`)ﾉ I need a new one, I think!

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

♪ヽ(*´∀｀)ﾉ then we can pick our swimsuits out together! i'd like that.

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(*´▽｀)ﾉ Okay~!

[doctorish]

I'm really that bad?

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(*ﾉxﾉ)

[doctorish]

You can tell me the truth. I can take it.

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(*´ ･｀) You're not scared to fly, are you?

[doctorish]

It took me long enough to get used to being on a ship. Flying without one...

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

Don't look down.

[doctorish]

I'm a skeptic; it's a compulsion.

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(*･ ･*)

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(*´ο`*)=3 ...

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

If you want to get better, there's only one place to look.

[doctorish]

I'm going to guess that's up.

[ofthebirds.livejournal.com]

(ﾉ´∀｀)ﾉﾞ ヽ(´∀｀ゞ)

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

（・ｗ・） it's easy to be afraid until you've experienced it for the first time ...

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

(*．△．) you're not that bad! ；．； i'm worse and i can hear myself doing horrible things to my a-t all the time because i'm just not as good as everyone else is ...

(ﾟｰﾟ)(｡_｡) but you just need to come in regularly so i can tune your a-t simon-san! it's been so long, it's really important that a-t be taken care of properly. ｢(ﾟﾍﾟ) that's why i started open☆sky after all! ヾ(´▽｀*;)ゝ" it's easier to support people on a-t if there's a regular place for them to come and be taken care of at, i thought, so i made one.

it's always rough at the beginning unless you're a genius like ikki-kun was simon-san. (人･_･)♡ you'll get better i know it!

[doctorish]

All right. I'm sorry that I haven't come in, I tend to get distracted.


Do you miss him? If you don't mind me asking.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

ヾ(´▽｀*;)ゝ" it's okay, i get distracted all the time, i was always really bad at doing schoolwork because i couldn't stay focused long enough to pay attention even in class sometimes!

[doctorish]

I can't say I ever had that problem.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

|･ω･｀) it took me a long time to find something i could focus on and be useful at unfortunately ...

it was silly, too~~ (ﾟｰﾟ)(｡_｡) because it was what i was naturally good at already i just never really knew it until i had to put it into practice and even then it took a while before i really liked doing it.

(*^^*) and now i'm running a shop for it!

[doctorish]

Then I'm glad you found it, Kururu. Everyone should do what they love. It just helps if you happen to be good at it, too.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

ε-(´・｀) simon-san shouldn't put himself down like that, you're really very good for someone who isn't a king.

(ﾟ∀ﾟ)ﾉ and well i'm really bad for someone who is so we're even.

[doctorish]

Well, that isn't quite what I meant. But thank you! I've always felt lucky to be a good doctor, because I can't imagine doing anything else.

I think you're great.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

ヾ(´▽｀*;)ゝ" i've never been in the hospital since i came here ... except when the uhm zombies appeared ... but i bet you're a great doctor simon-san.

[doctorish]

I hope you'll never have to come to the hospital! You can just take my word for it.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

and uhm

yes. ；．； sometimes. ♪(ﾟ▽^*)ﾉ⌒☆ but i know he's probably happy back where he belongs so i try not to let it bother me much because if he knew he was making me worry even a little he'd be sad and i don't want that.

[doctorish]

That's how I feel about everyone back on Serenity. It's an unpopular opinion, but I'm glad people have been leaving. They're better off where they were, and I don't want anyone else coming here. I just want everyone to be safe.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

（ ＾＾） i think that's a good way of looking at things.

[paidtheprice.livejournal.com]

You're not that bad.

[tothegloryof.livejournal.com]

(*．△．) i guess i'm getting better ...

[kingofthunder.livejournal.com]

You're fine for the beginning level you're at. Most of us aren't good examples for comparison, since it just comes to us naturally.

[doctorish]

It's fine, I'm used to people like that.

[kingofthunder.livejournal.com]

Yeah, well. Just don't let it get you down.