indesolution

[filter: ikki-kun]
it feels so empty without you here sometimes. it's wrong of me to feel that way because it isn't your fault you're not here anymore and i can't blame anyone for what the portal does anyway but i miss you and it's not fair - that's really selfish of me to say so i'm sorry. but it isn't fair that as soon as we really understood each other the best for what was probably the first time that i felt like i knew exactly what i was doing i ended up here and at least you were here at first but now you're not and i don't know what i'm doing with myself most of the time.

all the notes i make are flat. it's so hard to find the right tune for these a-t to carry, the parts are all different all wrong and it's so hard sometimes to remember that the sky isn't a weight crushing me down without you here.

ε-(´・｀) look at me whining to someone who can't even see this~~

i know what you'd say if you were here, you're doing an amazing job kururu, keep it up!

you always know how to make me feel better, ikki-kun. i wish you were here so i could believe my smiles meant something to someone, but i know what you'd say there too.

i just have to keep smiling! right?

i think i can do that, ikki-kun.

( ´△｀) i wouldn't be a very good pledge queen if i couldn't, after all!

so come back! because i want you to see me smiling for you again someday! (人･_･)♡ okay, ikki-kun?

(;￣▽￣)ﾉ————〜〜〜◎ i'll be waiting.

[filter: private]
i'm not sure which is worse of me, that i need to talk to ikki-kun because i can't feel better on my own or that i can only do it because he's not here.

i wonder if anybody else feels like this when the people they care about disappears. most of them just seem to be angry, more than anything else ... angry more than sad. i wish i knew. maybe it would help if anybody knew how to talk about it, but i don't know where to begin, and i couldn't give anyone else the responsibility for my own feelings.

i think simca misses him too, but i'm not sure. i hope i help a little, by talking to her. it's so hard to tell what she thinks sometimes, especially about ikki.

[filter: public]
(*．△．) simon-san, i think your a-t need a tuneup, too. (ﾟДﾟ≡ﾟДﾟ) you're riding them really rough, i can hear the way the gears aren't shifting right every time you make a turn! (ﾟｰﾟ)(｡_｡) come by the store tomorrow so i can fix them please?

i'm going to close open☆sky early today i think, i hope that doesn't upset anyone. （・ｗ・） i haven't been to a beach in too long, i want to look back on it and say i enjoyed myself!

(〃ﾟ∇ﾟ〃) and i need to buy a swimsuit.