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[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I guess I should be using this thing more. Start interacting with people without just talking machines. Guess I'm still waiting to wake up. Which is silly I know, but this place still doesn't seem real. I keep dreaming that those creepy Alliance guys have put me in one of those hospital places they had River in and this just some wacked out way to mess with my mind.

I miss Serenity. I haven't been on land for this long in years and the ground feels funny under my feet.

I miss Simon. It doesn't seem fair that I lose him just after I finally got him. Not that I think the verse is a fair place, I'm not that naive. But still.

Maybe I just need to spend some time in a place that isn't my room or the garage. Stop hiding with my machines.

Maybe I'll go make Mal make me a pretty cocktail.

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[ex_aint86]

You're welcome to come on down for a pretty cocktail any time you want, Mei Mei.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Thanks Captain. I haven't been meaning to avoid you, you know.

[ex_aint86]

You'd better not've been. Did that girl see you about those things?

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Course I wouldn't. Yeah she did and I was able to help her a bit. Think she'll let me have a go when she's finished?

[ex_aint86]

Well, they sound mighty dangerous.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

But fun dangerous.

[ex_aint86]

So you could always ask her.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Think I will. It'd be shiny to feel the wind in my hair again.

[ex_aint86]

That it would.

[ex_aint86]

Also don't go talking like that around Wash, he's got the same idea about the Alliance business. The both of you are beginning to have me convinced, cept I think the Alliance would have fangled a nicer place than this.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I didn't say I actually believed it. Just dreams is all.

Yeah, shiny and metallic is more their style.

[ex_aint86]

Dreams can be mighty telling.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

True but I reckon it's just paranoia. And still not understanding really how we can be here.

[ex_aint86]

And I'm sure the Doctor'll make it here eventually. I'm sure they all will.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I hope so. I hate to think of them flying up there without us. Serenity needs a lot of care and well they're not the most capable bunch when it comes to that sorta thing.

[ex_aint86]

I keep imagining Zoe and Jayne tryna fight over who gets to boss everyone else around, though I suppose everyone else would just be Simon and his crazy sister, nowadays.

I'm not sure what'd be worse, them flying without us or them grounded like we've gotta be.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

And Inara.

[ex_aint86]

I'm sure she's fine back on her home world without a thought to us.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

You expect me to believe that you think she's that heartless? It'd probably drive her mad to know you'd disappeared but not knowing how or why.

[ex_aint86]

I don't think this needs discussing.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Don't know. Maybe it's exactly what needs discussing.

[ex_aint86]

We aren't all as talented at sharing as you, Kaylee.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

You need to start somewhere. And it's long overdue.

[ex_aint86]

It doesn't even matter anymore. They're none of them here.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

But as you said they probably will be. You need to figure out watcha gonna do if she turns up.

[ex_aint86]

I'll do what I do every day. Work, drink, try not to think about this hole inside that ain't getting any better.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Or you could work on filling up that hole.

[ex_aint86]

Or you could stop acting like you know even remotely what I'm talking about and let me get the gorram hell on with my life.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to help you get on with your life but you seem pretty determined to stay stuck right where you are.

[ex_aint86]

I ain't stuck.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Uh huh.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

And not screw things up this time.

[ex_aint86]

Sounds to me like that's not a possibility.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Things'd go a lot better if you could just be honest with her. And yourself.

[ex_aint86]

I don't like what you're implying.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Of course not. That would involve admitting you've been a gorram idiot.

[ex_aint86]

And that's never been something I'm big on.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Yeah well, maybe it's time to try something new.

[ex_aint86]

Maybe I'm going to go feed my cat. Drop by the bar sometime.

[ex_aint86]

And who're you to give me advice anyway?

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Your friend.

[ex_aint86]

Speaking of grounded, I've been putting some thought into having a little gathering of like-mindeds who used to have ships of their own. I could count on you to be there, am I right?

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

Planning on building a new ship?

[ex_aint86]

That might be a long term plan. There's a whole big sky out there for these people to live in if they're really so sick of their world they got to bubble it away.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I think it's a mite more complicated than that. But if this really is Earth That Was it'd probably be a good idea to have another plan. Though the resourse aren't exactly high tech here.

[ex_aint86]

For now, I'm thinking room full of groundeds, something to drink and a bit of chit-chat.

[enginegrease.livejournal.com]

I'll be there. Could be interesting.

[qinglongweiji.livejournal.com]

It does feel odd being back on solid ground that's not a starship colony.